Thursday, February 27, 2014

Journal Day (2)

Here's this week's prompt-
We all have songs that really mean something to us. Often just hearing it can take us right back to that place and we are able to re-experience the memory associated with the song. Sometimes good, sometimes bad, but either way music has the ability to really draw things out of us and evoke deep emotion. Choose a song that has a particular meaning to you. Tell the story of the memory associated with the song, sharing as much detail as you can. Take us there; let us experience it with you.

The song is Sittin' at the Bar by Rehab.
The time I was in high school, in my dating the bad boy stage. I was with Eric and I thought I was in love. He was my brother's friend and he was in car clubs he was the older bad boy and I was swept up in all that magic. He had blonde short hair but had enough on top that you knew it was curly, piercing blue eyes, just the right amount of  beard and was short but built. He had the'V' that makes all girls go weak in the knees and is was from real work not the gym.

We were hanging out with his friends from the car club I can remember the bright orange Ford F-150 with orange interior and a screen in the steering wheel, the lowered cars and trucks but my favorite was the Ford. We had just left the tattoo parlor were Eric had just gotten some piercings I cannot remember if it was his tongue or his nipples this time but we were heading to one of the members of the car clubs house.

We had just showed up, the music was blaring, there was drinking and smoking various conversations and an all round good time. Not a place I should have been but I was not partaking in the activities that were above my age limit. This song came on and I can remember the guys singing this song like it was their anthem. The other girlfriends and myself just laughed at our guys and I could not help but admire the guy I was with. It is silly because the song and its meaning has no meaning to me and had no effect on the feeling I had at that point in time.

We broke up months later Over and Over by Nelly featuring Tim McGraw was the song I connect with that, I saw him not even a week later with a girl and I was heart broken. This song happened to be popular on the radio and I wept every time I heard it. I felt that this song was written for my current situation.

Are you taking part in Sometime's Sweet journal adventure? If so put the link below I would love to read it.

Last weeks post - Crossroads

Tuesday, February 18, 2014

Crossroads in Life

In an attempt to post more consistently and to keep my mind sharp(ish) I am going to try my luck at joining Sometimes Sweet's weekly journal prompts.

This week's prompt:
"Everyone has a time in their life they view as a crossroad. Sometimes you can see it as it's happening, and you're able to choose one way or another. Other times you may not realize you're there until you look back, and see what a turning point it really was. This week, write about a time you view as a marker in your life; a distinct place where things changed, for better or worse. "
The one time in my life that I truly consider a crossroad is when I decided to move in to my Dad's house. From my parents divorce until I was about 16 I lived with my mother. I was always a Daddy's girl growing up but my brother was older and he picked to live with my mother.

As we grew up I grew increasingly sad and hating living at my mother's house. I loved my step-dad and my brothers and sister but I did not like living with my mother. She did things that made me lose all respect for her and I hated how she made my step-dad feel. I had also been falsely convinced that my dad was not the greatest man so I felt I had nowhere to go.  

By the time I was driving I was only there because I had a car, I know that sounds horrible but I was to the point that I only cared what my step-dad thought and I wanted to be there for my little brother and sister. One day I had pushed the line with my mother and she took the car away from me. {Mind you I had great grades, never got in trouble in school, never broke curfew, I had a job, never asked for money and I did what good kids do. } I am not going to go into all that happened, but I stood up for myself and by doing so showed my mother that I truly had no respect or feelings towards her at all. 

At this time I called my dad whom I had not had a real conversation with in a long time asking to move in with him. He told me absolutely and that I should go on the trip that was planned with my mother to visit my grandfather who lived in Missouri which was happening that next day.  The trip was uneventful but I was able to visit with my grandfather that I barely see which was good. 

The day we got home, everyone left to go to my Granny's house and I packed my stuff and called my Dad. By the time everyone got home I was gone. (Yes I know how crappy that is) I called my step-dad and told him and he understood, he knew how I felt and he supported my decision and told me he would always be there for me. 

The part of this story where I noticed the change then started to happen. I was no longer sad or angry. I lived with 2 parents that I was able to respect and love and who loved and respected me back. I had goals and ambitions that I had not previously had. They encouraged and even helped me get into college. My grades were still great, I was still a good kid but this time I was not getting in trouble for dating someone that my mother hated. I was able to get closer to me dad and my eyes were opened to what I had not known about my mother. 

Because of my move I gained a great support group that I had not previously had. I was able to go to and finish college, I got a great job that I still have and I was able to start on getting my teaching certificate. I honestly do not know where I would be right now if I had not moved out, all I do know is that it was the smartest and most productive thing I have ever done.  I am glad I got away from the toxic environment that I was in and I wish I could have take my sister out of it with me. I should also mention that my step-dad and mother did divorce and I am still incredibly close to him. He walked me down the aisle with my Dad at my wedding.   

Want to join me on my journaling adventure?

Friday, February 14, 2014

Valentine Crushes

I saw this over at eighteen25 and thought it would be fun to try. This is my crushes for this Valentines Day.

 ♥ Main Crush ♥ 
My Husband!

 ♥ Musical Crushes ♥ 

Hayley Williams, Avi, Michael Buble

Um I love me some of that Avi DEEP voice
That man can sing the phone book and I would melt

 ♥ Superhero Crushes ♥ 

Green Arrow
If only he looked like this on the comic books.

 ♥ Blog Crushes ♥ 

I have loved this girl's blog since I first read it! 

This lady has the coolest clothes and takes the greatest pictures. 

 ♥ Painting Crushes ♥ 
Found at THIS epic Etsy shop
Found HERE

 ♥ Decor Crushes ♥ 

Source please? I want this in  my room so bad

This ladies amazing craft room!

What are you crushing on right now?? Should I make this a regular thing? I sort of loved making this. 

Thursday, February 13, 2014

Adulting: A review

I am still going to do my end of the month book overview but this book was so good I had to dedicate a whole post just to it. I originally read this book because of Kaelah from The Clueless Girl's Guide, she discussed it on her blog (I cannot for the life of me find that post!!). 

I cheated and did the audio version of this book and boy do I regret it. I want to hold this book in my hands and highlight important parts that I need to remember. I want to let everyone read it. I want to buy this for my siblings, cousins, friends of the family, strangers, anyone graduating from high school or college, counselors to pass out to students they are helping, just everyone. 

The tips range from silly stuff like dealing with the 'walk of shame' to loss to living on your own for the first time. Not all of the tips are mind blowing because you may already know it but some of them I never even thought of. I think that this book should be read by anyone between the ages of 16-25 maybe even a little older. I have already started to make changes to my routine based on this book and I plan on doing even more. 

Kelly Williams Brown also has a blog (which I am now following) if you want to know more about her or her tips. 

P.S. Have you ever read an educational/ self-help book that you felt everyone else should read, if so what was it?

Tuesday, February 11, 2014

To: The Most Wonderful Man

Today is Da'Hubby's birthday. I am so happy that he is in my life and I am able to share this with him. He really didn't celebrate his birthday growing up so I always try to make it super special. This year we were going to have a bowling party but life got in the way but we are going to be celebrating it all week long.

This morning I attacked him with silly string and gave him his first present, Magic the Gathering Fat Pack for the new set that was just released, and tonight he is getting his DVDs I got him.

I feel that it is important to celebrate the birth of the one's you love and I love to spoil him so it is super easy.

Happy Birthday my sweet man!!!

Monday, February 10, 2014


Reading: Adulting by Kelly Williams Brown , Hollow City by Ransom Riggs

Wondering:  If I am going to find a teaching job or if I need to break down and student teach for 6 months with no pay. 

Thankful:   For my husband and my wonderful family and support system. With all that has happened the past few weeks I am so happy I have amazing people I can depend on.

Eating: Chicken Fajitas with some delicious guacamole

Watching: Olympics. I love the figure skating and the snowboarders

Working On:   Studying for Special Education TExES test, organizing my house, a blanket that I will probably never finish 

Loving:  Guacamole and forest creatures. I have my office desk decorated with owls, hedgehogs, and foxes. I feel like I need some squirrels too. 

Attempting:  Workout on the regular, I have been wanting to tone up my arms a bit, my shirts are getting tight and with my naturally broad shoulders it is difficult to find cute shirts that fit my arms/shoulders right now.

Wanting:   Da'Hubby's gifts to arrive. I got him the LootCrate and I am so excited to see what he gets. I am so bad about getting too excited and ruining the gift by giving it to him early or dropping too many hints but this way I know nothing and it is killing me.

What are y'all currently up to?

Wednesday, February 5, 2014

Bad Way to Start off a Month

I was not going to mention this but I feel by not doing so I would be doing a disservice to you and my loved ones. This month I have had 2 of the most amazing men I have ever met pass away.

My husband's boss who was like a father to my husband and myself passed away with H1N1, pneumonia, and other complications to the sickness. It was so unexpected. He was truly the most generous, kind-hearted stubborn man I  have ever known and I hope my children are half the man he was. His whole family has accepted Da'Hubby and I into their lives and it is an amazing feeling that though not blood related we were and still are his family. I was hoping for my children to have this wonderful man teach them all that he knows about life, cars, love, and family. I plan on living my life that would make him proud. I know I will not be able to be as great as him but I will try my best to be the daughter he always wanted me to be.
The family and I urge everyone to get the flu shot and if you feel sick go to the doctor, no amount of money is worth dying due to stubbornness.  

The other equally amazing man was my Grandpa. He had been sick for a really long time and was on hospice at home for a few weeks so we knew it was coming but it is still sad when someone you love leaves. My Grandpa had the greatest sense of humor and he taught me not to take myself too seriously. Growing up we use to feed the animals in his back yard, bbq all the time, I would play salon and fix his hair or give him massages, I would bug him while he watched the news or stock report, and he just cracked jokes and loved every minute of life. He had love for everyone he had ever met and I never saw him angry once. He is going to be missed by all who met him, but now he is no longer suffering. 
This is the man I grew up loving not the sick man we lost. I will always remember him like this. 

I am sorry this was a long sad post but I feel I had to honor these great men. I hope that your month is going better and hope you are safe and well.

Please get the flu shot!!!